that Friday in Memphis

a story of old

when everything was good and everything was gold

they talked about growing old

together, forever

then came the heartbreak without explanation

her heart raced in pace in anticipation as she traveled to see his face

or so she thought

the trail of road

turned into another trail of tears

why this pain…

why these years…

why these tears…

to become stronger?

to remember everything happens for a reason?

to stop blaming herself when she knows she’s not the reason?

No one sees the tears that I cry
The tears that no one sees

No one knows the pain that I feel
The pain that I feel no one knows

The sadness
The abandonment
The heartbreak

Yeah my heart aches

Sharp pains in my chest
Surely in Allah do hearts find rest

O Allah dry my tears
do away with my fears
relieve my pain

O Allah I beg you

The sadness
The abandonment
The heartbreak

How much more of this can I take?

Help me, O Allah, help me
Release me from this misery
I get down on my knees
and beg You, my Lord, please

 

Looking up at the stars in the sky

Wondering why
Wondering why

Who am I
and how could I

Who are they
and how could they

Why this pain
why these tears

Looking up at the stars in the sky

Remembering why
remembering why

Who I am
and how I could

Who they are
and how they could

Know this pain
know these tears

Allah knows my fears

Looking up at the stars in the sky

cannot sleep

thoughts of you will not leave

close my eyes and start to dream

there you are in my mind

why will you not escape me?

thinking of what should be

thinking of what could be

longing to see your face

look into your eyes

feel your touch

anticipating growing old with you

all I can think of is you

sorry Allah for my transgressions

everyday more confessions

my own fault I confess it

Paradise surrounded by tests

Hell surrounded by desire

ya Allah open up my chest

please save me from the Fire

Your Paradise I desire

the Prophets -peace be upon them- I admire

show me the way with Your Light

know I wanna do right

help me win this fight
help me help others

we’re all sisters and brothers

need to learn to love one another

You’re the only One;

there is no other

to You I turn

sorry for everything

know you guided me to siratelmustaqheem

away from the path of the mushirkeen

united with fellow muslimeen

ya Allah please keep me on your deen

I desire to be of Your mumineen

all the cries and cries

feeling like I was gonna die

time and time again

gave my heart

was apparent from the start

why was it taken and torn all apart?

peace and love is gonna rule the world you say

from Allah is peace and love

He rules the world

turning to Him is the only way

where are we going and where do we turn?

there is so much to learn

this life is our sojourn

we shall submit to Allah

 from Allah we come from

to Allah we shall return

after all

know that after every hardship comes ease (ameen).

Allah helps those in need who follow siratelmustaqheem;

who are kind to fellow Muslimeen.

Allah help me through it all.

Please don’t allow me to fall.

I feel like I have a huge pillar of pressure building on top of me,

if I don’t get this weight lifted off of me.

I know that I can get through it,

all I have to do is trust in Allah and put my mind to it.

Allah helps those

They may also stare.

Someone might even say mean things, but remember that God knows the hearts of all beings.

It’s not weird to be modest.

To be quite honest, the one’s who judge you just because you have respect for yourself are the one’s who truly need to check themselves.

don’t know what to do again

trying not to cry again

feeling so much pain again

wanting to be happy again

don’t wanna feel like this ever again

though I’m sure I will again

each day trying to survive

each day going through hardships

each day learning something new

each day striving closer to You